Yes, it is I!
Do not fear for I have not abandoned you...completely. No. No. I haven't. I've just been so freaking busy! Seriously... I'm still in the midst of getting a job during all this chaos. (and I need money...my family and I are BROKE)
Yeah, that's right! You heard me, CHAOS!
I've been through HELL for the past months. HELL.
Sigh. I don't know where to begin...
Okay... I will admit to you all, I've been in my lows... I've been in my downward spirals... I've been on rock bottom... I've been LOW myself... We all lose ourselves from time to time, but like a person should, we wake up and reclaim ourselves or find more than what we've ever dreamed of finding. ...Yeah, I've kind've hit an awakening point, you might as well say. Being in college, you all should know what's out there! BEEN THERE, DONE THAT. YES, I HAVE. ...Not to say I'm proud of myself, either... It was, after all, just part of the growing experience...
But I had fun and that's not what brings me into the state I am right now...
No.
Sure, I could blame myself like any reasonable person. After all, we cause our own pain and afflictions usually...like most of the time. We're the only ones holding ourselves back. I'm been trying not to... Trying to find a way not to. Still searching, too. Still growing...
No... It's not me this time.
And I've been looking at the bigger picture, too. So, I know it's not all about me. I'm not self-centered...
Though the cause of the problem proclaims me to be so.
This problem points out every flaw of my existence...
Filled with hatred, jealousy, and loathing, this problem attacks me and my life!
This problem tries to manipulate me at any turn that this problem sees fit!
This problem wants what the problem wants and no exceptions!
This problem says that I'm the evil "WITCH" who proclaims to be a "SAINT" and wins everyone on MY SIDE... which is not true, I assure you...
To be honest with you... I don't know what this problem's problem is! I don't know how to respond to the problem and it's problems because the fact is that it's the problem's problems to begin with! And to be all the more honest, I am SICK of the problem's negativity and I am SICK of THE PROBLEM.
Now, don't think I HATE the problem... Hate is, in fact, a very strong word. And would it justify me to hate the problem especially with all of the problems it brought me? Possibly... Maybe... But I won't. I'm not that type... The problem wants to convert me, yes, almost worked, but I refuse!
The problem treats me like I'm a RETARD. The problem doesn't like me talking much... Especially when it comes to writing out how I feel or talking to someone whom I trust about the problem.
The problem throws hissy-fits, throws things, kicks things, slams things, and screams and mutters manners of hate-isms at me!
And no, I can't talk to my mother if the problem is present, the problem then might talk ugly while I am on the phone. FYI ...Though the problem wants respect, the problem doesn't give it...
The problem doesn't like happy things... Don't play happy music, especially... Because that enrages THE PROBLEM.
The problem pretends to not know you anymore in any crowd and doesn't treat you like the friend you should be treated anymore, nor accepts hospitality... Though I tell you this, the problem did want it badly when the problem had nothing and now that the problem has everything, the problem believes I owe the problem, but the problem refuses to let me pay back in any way....
The problem goes behind my back to stir up trouble... Talks behind my back with people who I don't trust and with those who I do... The problem tried to get me kicked out but then apologized...little liar... The problem is still being backhanded and trying to find ways to get rid of me...
The problem has been doing very naughty things... Yes, indeed... The problem thinks the problem is cunning but the problem isn't...
The problem used me...and now wants to throw me away...
I nowadays try to avoid the problem...and it's problems.
I am a girl of patience, yes, and I am a forgiver... But even I know when ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I've had it. That's all I can say... I'm not going to talk to this problem anymore... And I am not going to be friends with this problem until this problem gets the problem's problems straightened out...
I've had enough...
Between the problem and life itself... Life hasn't been easy... But I am grateful..
I mean. I know I am going through a test, I guess. I growing. I'm learning. I am seeing with my own eyes... Hell, I used to be the same way as the problem, but I snapped out of it... It was a long time ago. I learned. I am happy I did...and I finally see what it looks like in another/"the victims" shoes... It's not a pretty sight. And with this growing, I've learned to forgive and I am still learning to completely forgive and forget...
So much has happened...
One, I failed a class, which I am retaking again...
Two, I am confused once again with where I am going... However, I know I will graduate... I'm not completely confused, mind you.
Three, I miss my friend Frenchie, but I know she's happy with her love in Chicago and that means a lot to me...
Four, someone is stealing my money from my bank account and from my mail...I think it's THE PROBLEM's doing... The problem is quick to use when the problem wants something and therefore puts on a sweet act...
Five, I won an award for best sound design...
Six, I will be working on a fan movie with one of my friends/acquaintances...
Seven, my sister Melissa is getting married next week! Congrats!
Eight, ....Lord God, I am stressed out!
...I think everyone can figure out...whatever... I am exhausted from writing this... I don't get much sleep anymore... And guess who caused thaaaaaat problem, hmmm?
Also, I will be uploading a few bits of my work... Just for old time's sake... And also because, well, I have it on me... Mind you, I've been drawing a lot... I just don't put it all on the webs... xD
...I keep changing Renweard... Maybe he likes to change a lot. xD
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Hey, kids! Like comics? Want something to read? Look down below and behold the undeniable power that is in the abyss of my so-called cranium!Original Written Work:♥
The Day It Was Ex-Mas?♥
Skit Script: Happy Mournings!♥
"Smile" -AAR's song♥
Hailyne Scream Script: The Birth!♥
Hailyne Scream Script: The Birth Part 2!Original Comics:♥
Knick-Knack Cover!♥
Skit 1: Enter The Boogie-man- Page 1♥
Skit 1: Enter The Boogie-man- Page 2♥
Short: The Bug!♥
Short: Don't Ask a Clown♥ AAAH RANDOM:
Part 1,
Part 2♥
Short: AARGUE♥ OH YES! THAT'S THE STUFF!:
..To Be Continued?♥
AAAH RANDOM II: "Jack"'s Ailment!♥
Short: Angst's Sexuality...kind of!♥
Skit: Complicated♥
Tis A Memory♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥...
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